Superman Returns

Been feeling very blue this evening. I think it's been caused by a combination of factors: a heavy session at the weekend, a couple of bad nights sleep and a few personal issues that I can't resolve or don't want to resolve.

I don't feel trapped which is what normally causes a major downswing in my mood I just feel a bit alone and a bit in limbo. My new job is good, albeit very hard work. But I do miss my friends. Years ago I used to be a good telephone talker but these days I only really thrive from one-to-one contact.

I have been drinking this evening, which I know is a depressive, but over the years I've learnt that as long as I only have a few and watch a film that is either full of pathos, comedy or reminds me of good times it'll sort me out. Tonight I've not gone for pathos or comedy I've gone for Superman Returns.

It's a good film, rather than a great film. But any of you who have looked at my flickr site will probably realise that my name is Clark. And the movie reminds me of the time when I truly wanted to be the real Clark Kent. Funnily enough I am now a reporter and I once worked at newspaper group with a girl called Lois!

What I do like about my situation now, rather than a few years ago and what is helping me to overcome that sick and empty feeling in my stomach, is that if i take a moment to think outside myself I can put into play elements which I know will go some way to making me snap out of it.

There was however a time when I couldn't and I feel for those people who are experiencing that now.

For me personally it's a case of not so much blue, as blue, red and yellow.